And all was well and good until I discovered my level 1 practice books from a decade ago and more. And then the serpent hissed at me, Why not try for ikkyuu again this year?
Well, because. Because the infinitely confusible watercolour phrases (ni kakete, ni kakete wa, ni kanshite; ni kakawarazu, ni mo kakawarazu, etc etc) are still confusible and I can't learn them from textbooks, or these textbooks, which never explain to my satisfaction. I need to see them in context, and many times, and then the sound at least sticks. (I used to answer questions based on which choice sounded better, and passed those sections; but it's not fail safe.) Because those lists of 'similar in meaning and easily confused' compounds are the same. I can't learn vocab from lists, but lists is what the textbooks give you. Long long lists of very confusible vocabulary.
And of course because my hearing ability is pants, and now you have to pass all parts of the test, not slide and let your other marks pull you up.
I think people who pass ikkyuu must have marvellous visual memories and marvellous ears for language and the ability to speed read Japanese, and I honestly have no idea how people do it. And I wish I could go back to my innocent kanji review and my innocent light novels and not have to think about my ignorance of economic vocabulary and such.