May 17th, 2008

jiip sad

"Now I am surer where they were going"

I have a Hasui landscape happening out the study window. Pale blue evening sky, tall grey-green trees in the day's last sunlight. Lovely; serene; consoling. Only...

Of all these noted in stride and detained in memory
I now know better that they were going to die,


and *have* known it since the first Gaiden tank came out, because Minekura said exactly that in her afterword. There are tens of thousands of people dead in China, and hundreds of thousands in Myanmar, and that fact has clouded my life for the last few days; and still the foretold death of an imaginary character (who was pretty 'ii kagen' when he was alive) makes the evening seem a little empty.