May 8th, 2008

woxin d'oh

Discouragement

I've had a nagging feeling for several months that puzzling through Chinese sentences was somehow having a bad effect on my Japanese. Didn't really seem to affect how I read manga, so dismissed it as an illusion. Until today when I tried reading a fan novel- one of the Goujun x Kenren ones avalonjones sent me- and discovered I was right. Basic problem: I don't read hanzi as Chinese, I read them as English. Give me the same character in Japanese and though I know what it means, my mind now struggles to remember the Japanese word-- since it lacks the not quite seen but definitely *there* furigana of the manga. 'Kobamu-- yodomu-- no, *hasamu* what-the-hey-does-that-mean-in-this-contxt?'

It's a bitter struggle, I tell you.